Apocalypse From Now On

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Out. Hold. In. (I SAW THE TV GLOW, 2024)

I finally wrote about the ending of I SAW THE TV GLOW. Massive spoilers if you have not seen the movie. You have been warned.

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Welcome to Pornotopia (ASK ANY BUDDY, 2018)

ASK ANY BUDDY is a trippy journey through the unfiltered sexual id of queer men and the grainy digital remnants of the world they built for themselves, a world that could never truly exist.

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What Does Any Of This Have To Do With Tennessee Williams?

It feels facile to say I feel a kinship with a writer like Tennessee Williams; it’s like a flashlight claiming the same common heritage as the moon. And yet I felt I understood.

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Photo Gallery: FROM BEYOND Set 1

There's a new FROM BEYOND essay coming your way in a few weeks, but for now, please enjoy these weird photos I made with a homemade light filter and some 80s hunk closet cosplay.

In Spite of It All (SIDESHAVE, 2024)

(note: this post includes descriptions of BDSM practices, proceed accordingly) “Because I’m sick, because there was so much sickness, because I said fuck the sickness [...] and in spite of it all I have no guilt;” In SICK: THE LIFE AND DEATH OF BOB FLANAGAN, SUPER-MASOCHIST, Bob tells us about

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You Can Teach Yourself to Shave

The first step of shaving your face is realizing that you are now the kind of man who needs to shave his face, and you have no clue how to go about that.

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Three Film Recs for I SAW THE TV GLOW

I SAW THE TV GLOW is easily the best movie I have seen this year. If you are trans and weird, if you love media more than some people ever loved you, if you feel any kind of kinship in my writing; see it as soon as you can, and see it in a theater.

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I Did Not Like Baby Reindeer (But We Should Still Discuss It)

This guy is clearly an asshole. And yes, Donny may be a traumatized and relatable asshole. But being traumatized does not give you permission to use a trans person as a rehabilitation facility, or a plot device for your television show.

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Flaming Beautiful Failure (THE PEOPLE'S JOKER, 2022)

I am still doing this because I want to be the person I am right now more than I want my own teeth. If you’ve never had your heart beat like this, if you’ve never been so sure you’re willing to die for it, if you’ve never wanted something this badly? I feel sorry for you.

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Audience is Everything (GEOGRAPHIES OF PUBLIC SEX, 2024)

Nobody yelled at the screen or demanded an explanation for what they had witnessed. Instead, someone behind me whispered “oh my god,” in the tone of someone witnessing a miracle. Any prophet can turn water into wine, but the right audience can turn it into an event you'll always remember.

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My Understanding of GOODFELLAS Is Inarguable Proof That I Am a Man

Two-and-a-half-hours later, I was a changed man. Specifically, I was transformed into a biological man by the undeniable movie magic of Mr. Martin Scorsese. I always thought THE KING OF COMEDY was my favorite Scorsese, but this one gave me a free sex change, so I’m gonna update my roster.

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Publishing Schedule Update and Some Friday Favorites

Weekly updates are moving to Wednesday, starting next week. (Also, if you have not seen GOODFELLAS, this is your warning to do so before next Wednesday. It's great, you'll like it, I promise.)

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A Fevered State of The Union Twentieth Post Address

I’m not saying I’ll stop, because I don’t care about any other work than this. But imagine if it could sustain me as diligently as I sustain it? That’s the only thing I’ve ever wanted, and I’m closer than I have ever been. Why not ask for what I need? Why not make the leap, and hope I’ll land clean?

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What to Watch After LOVE LIES BLEEDING

Four films to watch next if you enjoyed LOVE LIES BLEEDING. (As spoiler-free as I could manage.)

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Photo Gallery: Title Card Art

The mix of light and color sources you can get from movie title cards makes some kind of weird magic with an HDR filter, and I really like the results. I also really like you paid subscribers, because you paid for a lot of my groceries this month, so thanks for that.

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Linda/Les and Annie and Me (LINDA/LES AND ANNIE, 1989)

LINDA/LES AND ANNIE is a messy handjob from the past, jagged with static and studded with mistakes. It still touched me. Burn us out of the archives, we'll find each other in pornography. I've never been so proud to be trans.

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OK, But Why Does He Sleep In There? (The Tillenghast Question, Part 2)

If you think Cronenberg movies are accidentally queer, wait till you see Ken Foree under the influence of intergalactic sex pollen, jello-wrestling a giant goopworm in tiny orange undies.

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Three Ways You Can Enjoy Weird Art for Free

My media diet is a patchwork of things I have figured out how to access for free or cheap, and I do almost all of my research the same way. I don’t even know how to use JSTOR, and at this point, I’m kind of afraid to ask.

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You Should Watch Gay Porn in a Theater (LA PLAYS ITSELF, 1972)

Watching vintage gay porn with a modern queer audience is a distinct communal experience, a rejection of social prudishness and an opportunity to champion queer artists that a polite society demands we discard.

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Falling in Love at The End of The World

Some might say these things don’t matter in the face of an apocalypse. But they are the only things that matter. We both live like people who know that, in a world of people who act like they don’t. It’s one of the things I love about you the most.

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Cockroaches, Sex Education and the Queer Apocalypse

Given this lens, it's hard not to see our current political and social landscape as a rhetorical post-nuclear apocalypse for us nasty queer mutants. And yet, we persist, and yet, we remain. The cockroaches of our own apocalypse.

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VENMO SALE: Get More Bang For Your Buck with a Birthday Indulgence or Site Membership

It's been a long year, and it's only February, which may not be the best news for all of us. February is an infamously cold and cruel month here in Chicago, and we all know the best way to keep our homes warm is to shoot

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A Gallery of Hot Nudes from a Trans Ohioan

No matter what the Ohio legislature does, Harm Cox remains a chunk of heartland beefcake straight from Grandpa’s Cheesebarn. It’s pure good luck that one of Ohio's greatest native sons also has a cool beard AND an incredible rack.

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Boys Beware! (The Tillinghast Question, Part 1)

There’s a reason that a certain strain of queer nerd gets overly attached to horror movies. Schlocky 80s gross-out movies are gay comfort food for me. I prefer to linger in their gooey clutches. It makes me feel normal.

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I can't do it today.

It's not that I have nothing to share. I'm sitting on gigs of butt photos (no pun intended). I have scrap playful humor pieces that you might enjoy. I even have a post about HEAVENLY CREATURES that is one fact-check away from sunlight. You will be